Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Journey - Angela Zhang
Have you ever feel like... empty?
Like, really empty. The real emptiness.
When you really have no motivation left, have no idea what to do with life, cant do anything but staring blankly at the ceiling of your room while laying on your back, scrolling your Twitter but not focusing, barely eat, hard to sleep, and more, more, more.
I feel it. Until I write this post, I still feel it (but I think I feel kinda better when I write this).
Since last month until now, I really have no idea what’s going on with my life. I couldn’t think straight. This is even worst than when I was doing my skripsi (even when I had to go to ER at 1 am). So much thoughts on my mind, I cant even choose which one is right or wrong.
Even reading quotes cant help me. And if you know me, I’m a quote lover, always motivate myself with bunch of quotes, make it as my wallpaper, lockscreen, or brush lettering. But suddenly, it’s just some meaningless words for me.
I think I lost myself.